✘ SilverLight D Lightbringer ✘

On this earth there are around 6,528,784,400 population of humans. Between this huge number of people, some might think they are weird and some might think they are awesome. Some ask like 'Why am even born?'. These type of people are just being humiliated or bullied, and they think they got no meaning of life. And the "Awesomeness Being" will be like 'I was meant to be born, man!' Doing sorts of awesome stuff, and they are proud of it and everyone likes them. Actually among this numbers everyone is weird. Weird as in special, born with different talent. If everyone had the same talent, everyone will be like fighting for whose the best? That's why we are made different. There's a friend of mine, he used to complain bout his appearance. Why is he so short and weird looking with lots of 'FREAKING PIMPLE' on his face.(If you read this please don't hate me) Then I told him you grow this much pimple there's a reason for it. Ever heard of "Ugly Duckling", he might be exactly the same as the story. There's is a reason for everything. Trust the miracle! Sometimes it's what you expected. So, you who think you are retarded/abnormal/extraordinary/freaks/weirdo, please don't be afraid to mix with others! One who think you are weird, they are the true weirdos. =]

Lately, I heard of a word called the 'Butterfly Effects'. I found out it's so cool. The meaning goes like 'anything happens right now, will change everything'. Something small might change your entire life, even an ant pass by. The Butterfly Effect might sound girlish, try imagine it in the cool way. Three more nights, and I believe it's gonna be a new brand new year. A year that we are not familiar with. No one knows what is going to happen there. Twenty-ten just shattered after 366 days. Most of the people kinda miss this year and this holiday. But, I don't really care. It's not I hate this year, at least there is something for me to remember. First time of my own, earning my own cash. By the way, Goodbye 2010!

Christmas? It suppose to be something happy, gathering with your own family and friends having fun or some sort of stuff. I envy that the Western always have a nice Christmas with the snow around. That's something really awesome. Too bad we don't have winter around, it's kinda sad. It's been 15 years from the past. My Christmas it is always been the same, no changes at all. It's always a cold quiet night and I'm alone. No one celebrating Christmas with me, all abandon me. I lived with my sorrow and loneliness for 15 years. And computer is my only loyal friend. Always right by my side. Actually I'm not really lonely, after few second of thoughts. Jesus is always with me. Guys Christmas isn't really for fun. It's a day for us to remember Jesus. Today is his birthday, the day he born as a lad. Anyways, Merry CHRISTMAS!

After all, my result is just what I expected. That's just something awesome! I think I can do better, just that maybe I'm too lazy. I feel that this is not what I suppose to deserve, I actually deserve better. I don't feel so good getting my result like that. Although I felt regret, but it's over anyways. We can't travel back time to change this fact. I just have to live with it, try to do it better next time. Our future is in our hand, often people said this. But mostly people don't think like that. Most of the people said all this is fate. I'll tell you fate my ass. Try use your brain to think, no one is born to do some stuff. But some are born to be better in stuff. This world is equivalent, it's fair. There isn't the best, but there's better. Try less comparing with others, your worst rival is not someone else. It's yourself, if you can beat yourself. There is nothing impossible all over the world. =3

Tomorrow is the day, the day which matters my life and death. It's the matter which path am I going next. It's a part of my destiny! I'm afraid of my freaking Bahasa Malaysia. Once I fail on that subject, I'm doom. It is more or less falling into Pit of Hell. Nah, I'm just kidding. It's actually worst! I'm just saying, it's not so bad after all. Look at the bright side, there are at least still some subjects for to study right over the dark side. Ahh, lets stop this stupid topic. Christmas is coming soon, ain't that great? I think the BEST THING EVAR!! It's been 15 years, I've never got a Christmas present so far. I'm just wondering, when will I have my 1st Christmas present. I'm still waiting, waiting for miracles to happen. I've never dream to have any Christmas, so I don't really know what do I want for my Christmas. But I hope it is something special, something that surprise me. AMEN!!

Tomorrow is the day. The day I get my salary, I've been waiting since the day I work. *cheers* First time earning my own cash. That's something nice and really worth it to experience. Just around six hundred Malaysian Ringgit. That's not a lot at all. Got to spend it wisely. Just maybe around three hundred spend on clothes. Others, spend on entertainment. It's been a really long time I didn't get to be with my classmates. Kinda miss their stupidity. I think it's time to get us together again. These days I start to fear once and again. All thanks to stupid PMR result. I'm so afraid that I couldn't make it to science site. If I don't make it, I'm doom! Actually I don't really care bout my result, but now I keep think bout it. It's surrounding my head, keep on torturing me. I seriously hate studies, but I enjoy earning knowledge. Because I feel that, knowing lots of stuff is good. It feels like I'm like 'Megamind'! Nowadays, I'm like a living person without soul. Almost everyday I sleep at 6a.m. I don't know wad kind of life am I having without you. *sigh*

足足2个月了！这两个月以来你过得快乐吗？我看也不怎么开心吧。已经4天我们没联络了，你过得好吗？可是这4天，我过得真的真的很不好。感觉你就在我生命中消失了。失去你后，我才懂得后悔拥有前没好好珍惜。我不懂这种痛苦几时才会才会消失，你才会回来。可是我一定会等。今天等，明天等，后天等，天天都等。等到你出现为止。我会傻傻陪着守着证明你值得，但我会笑着因为一切都值得。你就是那颗星，我非常确定。会永远的闪烁在我心里。嗨，搞不懂为什么我最近真的很emo！又开始烦了吧？